Tuesday, February 7, 2012
I am really pissed off nowadays.
I dun have anyone to talk to.
i mean there is ar... there are many out there for me.
but i choose not to share.as i feel like i am just a burden to people around me.
I am starting to lose hope with myself again.
Life is miserable every day.
I wish i have that special someone whom i can confide in
Someone who is there to listen and talk to me every single day.
I thought i had tht special someone. but when she chosed him my world came crashing.
honestly i doubt the bet with the creator will work either. Well i will reveal what this bet is all about after valentine.
Which i know for sure ain't happeneing
But i feel so broken.If only there was something tht could motivate me just to try even harder then before it would be soo good.
why did u come into my life just to leave me standing there all alone.
I am worried too
the test are coming but i aint studying
i feel mood out just to even touch my book.
thou i did ran thru my notes.
but i am not confident like how i usually am .
How i wished u choosed him at the end of feb.
at least there will be a little motivation.
I guess it's hard to put on a strong font
I am starting to give up.
I so wish like shouting to u
Telling u bitch fuck u I still love you.
No girl can match up to ur character.
And i want you to be mine.
coz i think u sympatise with him thts y u choose him
if he had been thru pain.
wouldn't i have gone thru the same pain with extra's?
I guess u nv thought of tht.
OKay girls aside
Damn fucking exams coming
I really have to force myself to study!! time to chiong!
Must do well again! Aim is to go poly
and then become a airforce personnel one day!
I wish my exams would come to an end soon and hols would start.
coz i wanna go somewhere far.
for awhile...maybe i will come back 1month later after my hols end.
shall see!! i just need a getaway.
besides i dun see myself being needed.
And i dun like how things are going in my life
Lets see if there will be changes .
