Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009 Labels: Fuck life It's never pleasant on the inside and outside
Killme;
on;
7:40 AM
I am finally back after a long wait...Juz didn't haf much time to blog!! It's like weekdays i have onli 1/2hr to use the com and weekends 2hrs!! Seriously i hate it lor....y muz i be restricted to a time frame juz to use the com?? I mean it's nt my fault that u lost ur job or smt!! I mean mum have been telling you to go upgrade urself for like the past 10 yrs!! Bt u refused!!! It's nt fair!! And nw u finally decided to upgrade urself!!! Okay so fine at least u finally upgraded urself!! Bt how long are u going to keep torturing me?? By not lettting me play the computer or my psp!! do u even knw hw frustrating it is juz to leave with u?? It's like so hard either u boss me arounf or dun let me play my com nor my psp!! And for heaven's sake i charge my psp in school and nt at home !! I hate my life!!! n every nw and then if weekday i want to use com u threaten to cut off the internet!! U dun knw hw frustrating it is when u can't do smt u like!! And the worst part is u all are restricting me off my freedom again like in sec 1 and sec 2!! Where i have to take care of my brother everytime!! Well i dun mind taking care of my bro bt ....nt always i want back everything i lost in life!!! and nw it's deja vu all over again!! I can't stand it anymore always going home after school!! I am alreadi tired and stressed bt i juz can't say it out at all!! I dun want to strt a fight or argument for my mother's sake coz she always get caught inbetween whenever u are nt hapi wth me!! N for the last time i wasn't the 1 hu spoilt ur tv nor ur clock!! Y the FUCK do u keep blaming me for everything!! Smts i juz wish i cud bash u up!! For always blaming me !! And ur tv spoilt becoz it was old!! nt me and my bro play the tv!! n as for ur alarm clock i didn't even touch it at all!! Y wud i even want to touck ur alarm clock when i hate the alarm clock??It's was my younger bro hu spoilt it y blame me!! Tell u nicely u still blame !! Find out the truth still dun say sori!!Wtf!!! U noe smt i juz feel like giving up everything and running away from home!! Coz this is nt my home!! my home is a place where there is life !! Nt quiteness!!! I hate the house being quiet!!! It feels like a cemetary!! n it reli is a cemetary when the house is quiet!! I want my house to be noisy!! And fun!! bt i juz dun feel the joy of staying at home and rotting!! There isn't joy in everything i do at home!! Even in ite i dun feel that happiness i used to have when i started off in ite the 1st few months!! I can't be myself anymore i feel like i nid to change!! Can't do this ....can't do that?? At least let me swear !! Oso go wrong !! EH seriously i dun see y i can't swear as much as i want!! alreadi so stress at home y still nid to be more stress at home!! I can't juz start a fight with some1 in class coz landing a punch on sme1 = Explusion!! If this was secondary sch maybe i wud juz do that and at most i get a stroke of the cain or detension or smt!!! Bt ite it's different!! I can't even tok rubbish at all!! I so miss toking crap!!! the onli time i feel hapi is when i am with my secondary school friends!! Coz i am hu i am!! They accept me for wat i am !! and never restrict me!! Nt like ite!! ...even with friends i feel left out every nw and then!! and feel restricted!! I am always asked to shut up!!! Hate is lah!! I juz hate it!! And i hate people slapping my face!! Oh well ....watever to life lah!!! And i hate working at pizza hut!! It seriously sucks!! Damn boring and i am so lonely working there!! I want to quit the job!! Bt i nid the money!! And tanx alot for pangseying me in pizza hut lah!!! Seriously didn't u ever learn frm the previous job u haf that u are nt cut out for waiter and stuff???Knn...hate everything that is going around me!! Well bad things aside nw!!!
Gud things next!!
Well finally i went out!! Went to wild wild wet!! Free tickets!!! Wohoo!!...So shiok play until super fun!! I haven't had so much fun for like a long time!!! And i seriously tank u for bringing me along!! For that whole afternoon i felt like i was in heaven nt hell!! So much fun !! playing ,disturbing one another chilling...etc....Espically at the wavey thingy damn fun capsizing one another!! Making circles under the hot sun!!! It was super fun!!! And i loved it!! And that small kid gt guts attacking us!! HAf to admire his never say die spirit!! Bt sme hw i juz blew it by scolding that boy!! was damn irritating lor!! It's like they disturb him and i sme hw kanna in the process !! Well after that all stop he come back and attacked us!! In the end i blew it and like grab whole of him and asked him to stopped i was like damn angri!! Sme hw reminded me of my younger bro!! when he gets damn irritating espically whenever he offs my com!! Haiz....kids this days are nt hw they used to be!! Well quite tired nw !! So my post ends here!!Killme;
on;
8:03 AM
KILLme
Name:Stiffyboy
Born in :15Feb1992
Age:17
Currently single!!!
Currently studying at Ite Simei!!
Loves: Partying with friends(Depend on hu they are!!!)
Loves playing guitar!!!
Currently learning!!
Love Slacking!!!
Love Sleeping!!!
Love to write Emo poems sometimes !!!!
Love movies that do breakdancing!!!,hip hop and more!!!
Loves my Handphone
My computer!!!
I will die if i dun haf 1 of these!!!
Love god !!! Without him it's different!!!
Loves praise and worship!!! It rox!!
Love alcohol!!! Quite nice!!!
love 2 talk a lot!!!
My wishes
A new Handphone either 5800 or 5730
A laptop
A new bike
Confirmation
Soundbar
A brand new desktop(Custom made by me)
Roller Blades
learn dancing
To dance under the stars and moon(Full Moon)
Get my car license when i turn 18
lots of Money
so many more ....
Music
Karma
My besties/Friends
Jeremy Teo
Esmond
Sam
zhi rui
lina
Lee hong
Noel
Kiam ping
Agnes
Jeremy Ng
jin pei
Amanda teo
Fabian
Stephanie Eric
Kimberly
Gina
Brandon
Bruno
Clarrison
Jessica
Navleen
Eshawary
If i miss out any of u guyz...sori...!!
EXITs
Agnes
Aaron
Brandon
Bao Ying
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Claire
Clarrison
Dolly
Dorothy
Denise
Donald
EMMANUEL SOH
Erica
Esmond
Edlyn
Fabian
Gina
Hidayat
Ivy(Vietnam)
Jessica(Jie)
Jordan
Joey
Johnathan (Ite simei)
Lina
Kim
Kerene
Lennon
Lee Hong
Sarah
Shalini
Sing yi
Marcus
Marilyn
Mariel
Melisa
Nira
Priya
Sasha
Valerie
Wei liang
Wei Loon
XiaoYue
ZieZie
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