Friday, November 25, 2011
Its been sooo long since i blogged!!
oh well i blog whenever i am down!
I feel miserable! so many things has happened
life just makes u wanna give up on urself but at the same time it pushes u pass ur boundaries
right now i am feeling super irritated!! its my dad
i feel that he is a stupid fucktard that deserves to get whacked!!
honestly i hate him so much that i just wanna beat him up
it's like he is so controlling!!! i mean who the hell wanna go home to a house and listen to their dads whine abt the smallest issues they can find?
it's so unfair!! every single thing he picks on me!! i am trying not to argue with him so my mum doesn't get caught in the crossfire..bt at times i have to argue in order to save my ass... i dun like talking to him ..neither do i like seeing him . he has never ever done me anything and even with good grades he doesn't praise u he just asks u to try harder.. okay that is what normal parent does i guess...but in other stuff like for eg the vacuum cleaner is blocking the walkway in the storeroom he doesn't have to ask me to do it right? and he is standing like right infront of it! wth is his problem? i ever once told my mum that if she has the chance go some where far with my brother! i shall run away frm the hse and live on my own!! which wud be better for everyone!! I just hate my dad so much!! and i kinda wish i had a jack daniels i wud defff drink it till i am super drunk and beat the fuck out of tht bastard!
y did he even come into my life anyway?
what did i do to deserve this?
he controls me so much and i am 19
even a female who is 16 gets much more freedom then me....
u can't blame me if i like to stay away frm home..
u drove me to it.. it's coz of the fact tht u actually make me feel like i am dieing at home it's the reason i stay out... and forcing ur son to do things even thou u knw he hates it what kind of father are u?
u r just so useless and pathetic ... to me u dun even exist... which is why some times i call u my mother's husband n nt my dad.....i am far better off with my mum!!
in life we can't choose our fathers but we can choose how we lived our lives to be a example to our kids!
and on the bright side doors keep shutting and new ones just keeps opening!! how cool is that?
