Kill me;

Sunday, June 8, 2008

What is friends??? Do friends go around badmouting one another ??? Or do they consider your feelings ??? Day and Night i keep thinking how lucky i was to have friends whom i could trust Bt little did i know that behind my back my own friend who call himself my brother badmouted me to other people!!! What did i do to deserve this ??? When he was down down i was there for him and when he felt left out i was there to keep him company?? Why did he do this to me ??? I thought i could trust him but he had to say bad things about me that hurt a lot!! he told my friend that i was irritating , bigmouth and all !! I felt hurt that very night I started thinking why didn't he just tell it to me straight instead of badmouting me behind my back!!! He knows that i would rather prefer him telling me straight to my face at least it could change a lot instead of badmouthing me behind!!! other than that he was doing the same thing to all my other friends !! How could he do that to them!! i was so pissed off I went and confronted him asking him why he did that !! He acted blur !! that was what got me even more pissed off !!! he kept asking and i decided to give him a hint but he still couldn't get it !! I got so pissed that i scolded him and said this " WHY DON'T YOU GET IT I HAVE BEEN REPEATING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AGAIN DON'T YOU GET WHAT I AM TRYING TO TELL U !!! AND MUST EVERYTHING BE SPOONFED TO YOU EVEN IF I PUT SHIT IN YOUR FACE YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND " i told that to him straight !!! i couldn't take it anymore for that moment i blew it. For the couple of minutes i sat in my room thinking about what i just said and how he would feel!! But my anger just got the better of me !! The next thing that guy had to do was to call me on my phone. I picked it up and talked there he was crying on the phone asking what he had done wrong i didn't have the mood to talk so told him to call my friend there we talked and he was asking and asking what he had done so i decided to tell him on the phone calmly what he had done wrong and there he was begging for a chance asking us to give a day to change his attitude and undo what has been done but how can a person change his attitude in a day??? there was no way he could have done it and i seriously didn't belive that he could do it the trust in him that i had was gone and never again will i ever trust him the only thing i could say was " LET ME THINK ABOUT IT !!! I WILL CALL YOU WHEN I HAVE DECIDED" and so he hang up the phone and so did i and my friend.I sat in my room again once more and thought about whether i have to give him a chance or not !!! Soon i decided he dosen't deserve the chance !!! If he really was serious he would have proven it well till now i don't know whether i should give him a chance or not as i haven't seen a single change in him nor have i see him till the day he comes straight into my face to confront me for the answer .........the answer that he seeks shall stay with me and nevertheless will i ever forget what he did to me and my friends!!!!

Killme;

on; 9:40 AM