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Killme;
on;
6:34 AM
So today was quite a okay day!!
had my practical test.it was okay
Oo i fail my maths test!! ><
Fuck man what am i doing?
I can't fail my test just like that!!
Sme times i wonder why we need maths in life?
I have to pass i dun mind getting a B just for maths!!
I can't get anything lesser then that!!
I wanna go 2nd year poly!! I got many things to prove.
N i got a heavy burden on my shoulder.
If i dun do well n go in poly how to survive?
I am not gonna suffer.
OH WAKE UP !! I Have to do something !!
I went for my run today!!
my stamina is dropping.
I feel that i am getting weaker and weaker by the day.
Am i dying? Or am i losing my motivation?
I dun know my body couldn't run at all!!
legs were all weak!.
I can't get weak i have to get stronger!
I wanna lose weight!! 65kg is my aim!!
but well even thou today run was bad i know i tried my best.
Well today she called.
I dun know why but i felt happy.
It's been soo long since u called.
But what my friends said was right.
I guess when u need someone thats when u rmb me.
Am i really a substitute?
Ur char really reminds me of one of your cousins.
Exact same with a twist. lolol
But well i am still happy u called at least i am happy u remembered me when your down! :)
thats good enough for me.
Totally diff girl
Oh today i am super duper happy!!!
I received a card from her.
It was so nice.
as much as i would like to show it to the whole world.
I can't as i promised i wouldn't show anyone.
But i feel touched just knowing she did it for me as i am her bestie.
I mean how blessed can i be?
We both think almost alike.
Both of us in the same boat.
there are so many things!
Oh My bestie I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH!!
Damn if only i could find a exact carbon copy of her.
A girl like her must really be treasured always and well taken care off as well as pampered.haha
Killme;
on;
7:38 AM
Haiz.. My plans are getting foiled one sfter another!!
Freaking sian!!
Valentines day can go out.. But she not free.
My birthday she free i cnot go out. Coz they wanna
Celebrate my birthday. Sme times i wonder whats the point
Of a birthday.i think the only time a person shud celebrate their birthday
Is when they are frm 1-12 years old, thn 16,18 and 21.
Till thn i dun see the importance of a birthday in between.
Feels crappy. Lol.
Damn u know every girl should have your character! Really
If every girl was like you guys wud feel blessed! Even thou
We are friends we understand each other just like that. Intresting eh?
Oo ystd was with her again! Okay her and she are
Totally different people aite.her hmm was quite good to see her.
Its fun arguing with her! Esp when we shoot each other like a boss only!
Life"s interesting now!
Girls getting interesting as well!
Lets see eh.
They say the most happiest person is one of the
Ones that have the most problems.
Sme times it maybe true but if u look on the positive side
U see it really aint tht impt to worry abt probs at times.
Just be happy.
Live life to the fullest.
Killme;
on;
2:32 AM
I am really pissed off nowadays.
I dun have anyone to talk to.
i mean there is ar... there are many out there for me.
but i choose not to share.as i feel like i am just a burden to people around me.
I am starting to lose hope with myself again.
Life is miserable every day.
I wish i have that special someone whom i can confide in
Someone who is there to listen and talk to me every single day.
I thought i had tht special someone. but when she chosed him my world came crashing.
honestly i doubt the bet with the creator will work either. Well i will reveal what this bet is all about after valentine.
Which i know for sure ain't happeneing
But i feel so broken.If only there was something tht could motivate me just to try even harder then before it would be soo good.
why did u come into my life just to leave me standing there all alone.
I am worried too
the test are coming but i aint studying
i feel mood out just to even touch my book.
thou i did ran thru my notes.
but i am not confident like how i usually am .
How i wished u choosed him at the end of feb.
at least there will be a little motivation.
I guess it's hard to put on a strong font
I am starting to give up.
I so wish like shouting to u
Telling u bitch fuck u I still love you.
No girl can match up to ur character.
And i want you to be mine.
coz i think u sympatise with him thts y u choose him
if he had been thru pain.
wouldn't i have gone thru the same pain with extra's?
I guess u nv thought of tht.
OKay girls aside
Damn fucking exams coming
I really have to force myself to study!! time to chiong!
Must do well again! Aim is to go poly
and then become a airforce personnel one day!
I wish my exams would come to an end soon and hols would start.
coz i wanna go somewhere far.
for awhile...maybe i will come back 1month later after my hols end.
shall see!! i just need a getaway.
besides i dun see myself being needed.
And i dun like how things are going in my life
Lets see if there will be changes .
Killme;
on;
7:22 AM
Things are different nowadays.
Esp with you as his gf
The texting pattern... The phone calls
All disappear. It feels so normal.
Sometimes i wonder what would have happened
If i had met you first? 5 years from now what would happen
To you? Will he still choose u over his ex? If yes wouldnt
U be heartbroken so badly? I know i still have
Her soft spot for her. Which would mean that i still like her
Maybe one day u might be mine or maybe not.
My valentines this year is gonna be a lonely one i guess
As i dun see girls that i like for this year valentine or maybe i have?
She might be right infrnt of me idk.. I do know is that i m starting to fall for someone else.
How i love her character.
N just trying to please her n make her smile is fun.
But idk what she thinks about me.
I am scared to tell her for fear of being hurt.
And she wunt be free on valentines!! :(
She is grounded. How i wish you wouldnt be grounded just on
Valentines n my birthday! At least we could hang.
Idk what is thr between us. Maybe its a super good friendship
Or a start of a beautiful relationship.but thn i will not be able to knw yet.
And a tip nv make a bet with the the creator himself.
Killme;
on;
10:20 PM
This song is stuck in my head!
It so suits me now!
en azhagenna en thozhilenna yen ennodu un kAdhal undAchu
en azhagenna en thozhilenna yen ennodu un kAdhal undAchu
siru kannIrAi nAn thavazhdeney idhil eppodhu minsAram undAchu
penney.....eyyyyyyyy...... penney......ey.............
rAvodum pagalodum undhan ghabaga thollai
rayil pAdhai poovodu vandugal thoonguvadhillai
idhu sariyA thavarA enbadhai cholla sAthirathil idamillai
vennilavey vennilavey ennai pola theyadhey
unnodum kAdhal noya(love disease)
female: oru poongAvai pol endhan ullam vaithen
adhil puyalvEsi tholaithadhu yAr
vennilavey vennilavey ennai pola theyadhey
unnodum kAdhal noya(love disease)
oru poongAvai pol endhan ullam vaithen
adhil puyalvEsi tholaithadhu yAr
The meaning of this song is asking
Whats is my beauty?
What is my job?
Love has form inside of me
I have gotten the love diease
I am not sure if its right or wrong.
At times i cant slp..
Okay thats just the summary of it ar!
I am too lazy to translate the whole thing
As it really makes me think abt her whn
I try to translate this song.
#lovehurts
Killme;
on;
8:17 PM
I was with her yesterday.
I felt happy when i was near her.
I guess all i can do is look at you from afar.
Be there for you when your down.
Yea i am friend material.
I maynot be serious but when the time comes i will be.
Love is blind.
There is no reason to why i ever loved u.
I still do but not as a friend but more than that.
You thought i be okay.
But i am just putting on a strong front.
So as not to let you pity me and try to make me feel
Better. I hate it when u try to do that.
I am not crying on the outside but i am crying inside.
It hurts. There are so many girls but i dun see anyone who
Has the same character as you. I cant be there physically all the time
But maybe had you said yes i would be there physically by your side.
#heartpainiswhatcausesamantogodeeerandwonderwhythingsarentgoinghisway.whyohwhydiduchoosehim.
#iknowtheansweriguessloveisblind
#justlikehowifeltinlovewithyou
#heartbrokeneveryday
Killme;
on;
6:59 PM
KILLme
Name:Stiffyboy
Born in :15Feb1992
Age:17
Currently single!!!
Currently studying at Ite Simei!!
Loves: Partying with friends(Depend on hu they are!!!)
Loves playing guitar!!!
Currently learning!!
Love Slacking!!!
Love Sleeping!!!
Love to write Emo poems sometimes !!!!
Love movies that do breakdancing!!!,hip hop and more!!!
Loves my Handphone
My computer!!!
I will die if i dun haf 1 of these!!!
Love god !!! Without him it's different!!!
Loves praise and worship!!! It rox!!
Love alcohol!!! Quite nice!!!
love 2 talk a lot!!!
My wishes
A new Handphone either 5800 or 5730
A laptop
A new bike
Confirmation
Soundbar
A brand new desktop(Custom made by me)
Roller Blades
learn dancing
To dance under the stars and moon(Full Moon)
Get my car license when i turn 18
lots of Money
so many more ....
Music
Karma
My besties/Friends
Jeremy Teo
Esmond
Sam
zhi rui
lina
Lee hong
Noel
Kiam ping
Agnes
Jeremy Ng
jin pei
Amanda teo
Fabian
Stephanie Eric
Kimberly
Gina
Brandon
Bruno
Clarrison
Jessica
Navleen
Eshawary
If i miss out any of u guyz...sori...!!
EXITs
Agnes
Aaron
Brandon
Bao Ying
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Claire
Clarrison
Dolly
Dorothy
Denise
Donald
EMMANUEL SOH
Erica
Esmond
Edlyn
Fabian
Gina
Hidayat
Ivy(Vietnam)
Jessica(Jie)
Jordan
Joey
Johnathan (Ite simei)
Lina
Kim
Kerene
Lennon
Lee Hong
Sarah
Shalini
Sing yi
Marcus
Marilyn
Mariel
Melisa
Nira
Priya
Sasha
Valerie
Wei liang
Wei Loon
XiaoYue
ZieZie
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